shot

I got shot today. emotionally and mentally.  Anthony told me today that he will most likely join the air force. and its even worse that he wants to start it so early. I can’t stand this. every time I get so close to one of my dream, the military takes it away from me. it shoots my heart, rips out my soul, and tramples on and crushes my hopes and dreams. when I finally start to  feel like I belong and start to see a place as home, I'm forced to move. leaving my friend behind me because most of them abandon and forget about me. just when we are able to get our dream of being stationed where we could live and retire in our dream town Savannah, Georgia, the military messes it up for us. right when my dad gets back from Iraq and a year later he is finally able to retire, he gets shipped off again! just when I get so close to someone, the military rips us apart. I though I would never have a serious relationship because of the military, and now that I have found love, the military wants to take my Anthony away from me. No! I can’t let this happen. I can’t let the military ruin my life! not again! There has got to be something I can do about this,  some way to persuade him to considering other options. why does this keep happening to me…  I can’t stop crying… I can barely see,  my nose is stuffy and now my head hurts a little and my throat hurts. I feel like I’m getting sick from this  .