a few old notes

here are a few poetical notes I had written here and there :)
it’s in order newest to oldest, so u might want to scroll down and read from the bottom of this post

the crisp wind blows gliding along my cheeks, blowing my long hair into the wind. making my dress flow against the sand. i feel the sand under my feet, between my painted pale sea blue, unbalanced yet perfectly balanced. i take it all in and i am brought back... to my first steps this far there the waves are slight, real, and soothing, and the aroma of the sea flows through the air. and i walk in the sand aloof from him, trying to conquer the hilly sand. as we get closer to the water, we walk closer. he and i walk into the ocean, almost together. i look down at my feet as i step into my new life, my dream. the water foamed tide pushing over my feet, the moist ocean floor so cool and nice under my soles. i take my first few steps, then look back up and walk deeper. i start to lose my balance and conquer it again. something so wonderful yet i struggle to make it, and there he is, to my side in front of me, reaching out toward me, time freezes and and something speaks to me... to remember the moment forevermore, it said, "go, fulfill your dreams, let your story continue brighter, and cherish love forever..." and i reach out as i step closer to him, and i take his hand, and he takes mine in his, we smile, and walk on closer, together.
-let us journey together, hand in hand, no longer your story and mine, but from this moment on, "Our Journey"-by Destiny Toler
"i took a long nap today in the sunshine across my bed. i began to smell his cool skin's natural scent from when i would lay my head upon his arm. I felt safe, and not so alone anymore. i felt my heart's glow and pace. i dreamt and felt his presence beside me smiling at me curled up sleeping, and i felt a cool wind graze my arms, then i felt his silky skin's touch as he placed something cool yet warm over me and we smiled, even i through such sweet slumber. i smelled the summer-spring mixed air, the earth's essences and blades of grass between my fingers and bare blue toes. i dreamt us relaxing in the grass sprinkled with small growing white flowers and clover patches with few tuffs of it's blossoms. the air was cool yet the sun was warm and it shined upon our cheeks, and glistened off our eyes. i looked up at him gazing smiling into the sky as if he were praying, his aura glowed brightly, and i coulda sworn his eyes were watered with his smile, i smiled brightly at him, and when he closed his eyes and noded in the obscure direction, and he turned and looked at me, i shy-ed, blushed, and turned my head, but soon found myself gazing into his eyes again. he reached to me and pushed my hair behind my ears and smiled, i felt a happy tear start to roll down my cheek and he wiped it away with his thumb, and i lay back down beside him on his knees in the grass and rested my eyes, as i dozed i heard his voice whisper thos old famous words he used to tell me everyday... "Soon Destiny, soon..."
i then awoke in my bed again, with his jacket over me like a blanket, bittersweet tears began to flow gently for my longing heart and soul aching to be with my love again. missing him more that usual."
a snippet of my story- For My Angel ♥
another excerpt from my book to be written: "in my dream land once again, cold chills wake me and a vision flashes in my head of the window open, with white veil curtains blowing into my room, the moonlight shining through and the aroma of the Mississippi magnolias fill the night air. the vision vanishes in seconds. still in my dream land, i cautiously pull away my covers and slip out of his protective jacket. i'm aware of the bell clings of the rings around my neck and my eyes widen, staring at the closed window. i look around for my cat, she's asleep. i thought it was best to take her out of my room. as i close the door behind her i again feel a cold breeze from the direction of the window. something draws me near... curiosity?...wonder?...fate?... I approach my window and slowly open my blinds to see the beautiful calm night sky. I open the window and feel the crisp, cool fresh air. curiously i scavenge for a way and carefully take out the screen to begin to crawl out. suddenly i'm in a flowing moon-pale dress the color of a lunar moth. i sit at the ledge of my isolated roof once more, dangling my bare feet over the edge. i let down my long hair into the wind, now opposite;flowing into the night sky. the lonely magnolia tree glistens like a dark emerald, attracting my glare. the violet and white flowers wave at me in the wind. its stunningly beautiful outside... suddenly i'm slightly thrown out of my trance, sensing something, or someone, watching me, gazing into my silvery eyes. could it be my angel again...? dare i look and ruin the surprise...? I feel safe as he lands aside me, and feathers glide over my shoulders and my back. warm and comfortable as always with him, i again rest my head against his arm as he protects me with his soft and almost invisible wing. safe again, i nap with my prince ♥
Later i awake in my bed, in his jacket still, and my eyes immediately draw to the feather on my bed sil, almost glowing in the dark of the now warm room..."
this sea salt spray i use on my hair and skin reminds me of wonderful times at the beaches at home, by the docks, mostly the one with the snowcone stall, where the smell of the ocean is crisp and there. and my toenail polish reminds me of it too, my bare feet indulging in the soft wet sandy mud of the shore as my toes are thinly blanketed by the sea's lightly foamed mini waves. it all brings me back...oh how i miss the docks and that bit of beach and ocean, the piggyback rides to the dock, the titanic moments in the wind at its edge, being held and carried through the water as i melt and relax. ahh how i miss it all... my sanctuary :)
got back from a long trip, haven't been in my own room in days, it seems warmer, nice, comforting, like the presence i love and miss so... im cleaning my room and keep catching myself glancing at the window. i empty out a box and pack it with gifts, a puzzle with white tiger, cub, a snowfox family, and others in a haven, i pack a surprise for a younger then for my dear some purple silver and violet stones that remind me of his aura and for some reason his dark alluring eyes. feel warmth, Lizzy paws at the blinds so i open them and return to the box, i leave for tape and paper and address, and when i return to my window, now open, there on the sil lay a single off white feather, with a blue-ish hue ridge.
my angel used to tell me "no tears, only happiness"
i smiled with watery eyes and replied, "but... you bring me tears of love-filled joy."